what now

i'm about to get really cranky and opinionated.  so if you're going to be offended, don't read further. 

i am currently being paid time and a half (happy memorial day) to sit in my patient's room (while she sleeps) and make sure that she is safe (ie. doesn't attempt to kill herself with IV tubing or slippers or her spoon).  don't get me wrong.  i feel for patient's with psychiatric disorders.  anyone that tries to kill herself more than 100 times is obviously not normal.

BUT...

i'm angry at the system.  why is my psych patient on an oncology unit?  our beds are the most expensive in the house.  why is she 26 years old and nobody has been able to help her?  how is she able to manipulate so many people into getting what she wants?  why can someone like this have children and people that i know and love who want children more than anything cannot?  what should our state do with people with mental disorders?

i feel kind of angry.  and helpless really.  i'm certainly not equipped to help this woman.  and so many people before me (who are) have failed.  so, what now?