oops

nurses have DARK senses of humor.  so when my friend andy was having a hard day and said something about his patient having difficulty breathing, i kinda joked and said, "well, if he just stopped breathing altogether, maybe your shift would be easier."  andy looked at me with that you didn't just say that look.  and we parted and went about our lives.  it was just ten minutes later that i responded to an emergency light.  andy's patient's oxygen saturation was 70%.  he was struggling to breathe.  and unresponsive.  we rubbed his chest.  attempted to get him to respond.  we called respiratory therapy.  and anesthesia.  they intubated him.  and sent him to the ICU.  and all i could think was, "shit, did i make this happen?"  me and my stupid sense of humor.