heart vaca

haven't posted much lately.  not much to say.

as you might imagine, going to work after losing a patient whom i cared for for three months feels different.  i feel less motivated to work hard.  i kind of want to protect myself from getting close to anyone else, from losing any other amazing human beings.

timing in life is funny.  on may 19th, our hospital launched a new charting system.  it has changed MUCH of our practice.  and is taking A LOT of getting used to.  and in preparation for this change, i volunteered months ago to be an "expert," a super-user if you will.  which, if you knew me would make you laugh because i SUCK at all things computer.  but i took extra classes.  and volunteered to assist staff in the change.  so, for my last two 12 hour shifts, i've done NO patient care.  instead, i walk around the unit, asking nurses and physicians if they need help charting.  i re-write physician orders and serve as a liason between staff and the new computer system professionals who pace around out unit, expert in the computer system but oblivious to our unit and the way in which it functions.

in some way, sitting in front of a computer and helping healthy nurses chart (instead of caring for sick people struggling to survive) feels good.  it's kind of like a mini-heart vacation.  i wouldn't say i enjoy it.  it's kind of boring.  and lame.  and i'm not even that great at it.  but a heart vaca was in order.

so, thank you CPOE (computer physician order entry)!