i don't have a lot to say today. but i felt like writing. i'm home. sick. sitting on the couch. recuperating from four twelve hour shifts in a row. and mentally preparing for the three more that start on saturday. ugh.
i have one friend in the hospital at 26 weeks pregnant (who is being brave and calm and amazing). and cole's dad with sudden vision loss due to unknown causes. another friend has her TWO in-laws in the hospital due to two different issues that occurred at the same time. her mother-in-law had a stroke at home, did nothing about it, and then started having seizures. and a father-in-law who suffered a heart attack at the very same time. excuse my french, but WTF?
suffering is hard to witness sometimes. there is so much of it. and only so little space in your heart to carry it all. how do you support your friends and loved ones who are hurting? or feel stressed? what can you do as a nurse and as a friend? when are you over-stepping boundaries or simply going above and beyond? is there a difference?
i'm gonna vegetate today. and maybe buy vegetables at the grocery store. i need to eat better. and drink juice with vitamin C. i need to take good care of myself so that i can continue to take good care of others.
(over the last four days, i cared for a 23 year old gal. she's beautiful. and quiet. she's in pain. and getting REALLY sick from her chemotherapy. i gave her her stem cell transplant over the last two days (3 bags on tuesday and 2 bags yesterday). and i'm REALLY hoping it works. she wants to go to school to become a pharmacy tech. and one of my other 23 year old patients who i re-admitted on monday is one year post transplant and wants to be a doctor when he's finally healthy enough to go to school. how cool is that?).
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