coffee break mid week

i find myself in coupeville, washington again. i was here just two weeks ago while on bereavement leave. but today, i squeezed in one more visit to my man friend as he completes his last week of clinicals here, working with one of the few town's physicians. it's peaceful here. sitting in a quaint little coffee shop - all of the locals chatting and catching up on the morning's gossip.

THIS is the kind of respite i need between each shift. i'm a ferry ride away from the real world. and yet, i feel like i'm on vacation. there is NOTHING to do here. i arrived at about 6:45 last night and i will leave by 6:45 tonight (because i worked a half day yesterday and i work tomorrow). i will do nothing but eat phad see ew noodles from the ONE thai restaurant, sleep tight in a warm bed, and drink coffee.

i wish i could come here after every shift. i worked 4 hours on sunday, 12 hours on monday, 5 hours yesterday, and i work thursday, friday, monday and tuesday (all 12 hour shifts). and i don't want to. i want vacation. sometimes it's hard being a grown up, with a stressful job that requires so much brain and too much heart. it's really hard to motivate myself to work so much, with such sick people.

for now, i'm gonna get back to sipping coffee...